Movie Review: Courageous

The other night for “date night” I took my wife to see ‘Courageous‘ after a close friend, Lynn Wheeler, recommended we see it. I’m just going to say it now, this was probably the most moving film I have seen in a long time. The entire theater was packed w/ people who by the end of the movie would all be moved to tears (just like me). I’m not going to give away the plot of the movie or anything like that other than to say that if you are a father, soon to be father, even a husband or boyfriend, you need to see this movie. I can’t wait until it comes out on DVD because I’m giving them away as gifts to everyone I know…

Houston Nutt: Deja Vu in Oxford

This past weekend my wife and I rendezvoused w/ my parents at the farm and headed to Oxford, Mississippi bright and early Saturday morning to see the Razorbacks do battle w/ the Ole Miss Rebels. Needless to say we went thinking that we were going to quickly do work on the Rebels. That simply wasn’t the case. Yes, we did get a win, but it was a hard fought win that I wasn’t for sure was going to happen until the very last few seconds clicked off the clock. The Razorbacks played terrible, but that’s another story…

The biggest story from the game, in my opinion, happened after the game when Coach Houston Nutt went after Neal McCready, a sports writer, because he had predicted the Rebels to lose 49-10. Here’s exactly what he said:

“I don’t read your stuff, they tell me what you say,” said Nutt, looking at McCready. “One of my freshmen told me that Neal McCready wrote that we’d get beat 49-10. Wasn’t no 49-10.”

Should there have been a parade following the game because the score wasn’t near as bad as they had thought it would be? Should everyone just overlook the fact that Ole Miss just broke an SEC record by losing 10 consecutive conference games in a row? There have been a ton of stories about this since it happened: Commercial Appeal (Memphis), and Clarion Ledger (Jackson). I really enjoyed Neal’s follow-up post after the press conference. Watching all of this transpire on the way home from the ballgame on my iPhone I realized that this is so reminiscent of the time Houston called into debate sports writers Wally Hall on The Show w/ No Name one afternoon. The guy has so much trouble taking blame for his shortcomings and lack of ability that it’s sickening. Rather than accept one bit of responsibility for blowing a play call or poor clock management, he quickly turns his attention to the media and whoever else is handy. His ego was what ultimately turned the vast majority of the Razorback nation against him and it doesn’t appear that he can do anything about changing that.

I’m pretty sure that he’ll be leaving Oxford at the end of this year, never to return to the big leagues of the SEC again. At the end of the day, it’s probably our fault for ever elevating him to this level to start with. I just feel bad for the guy because he is obviously out of his league, and is getting ready to burn some more bridges. Good thing he has Jimmy Sexton looking out for him.

Someone sent me this and I thought it was highly appropriate…

Seeing Houston go off in the direction he did at the press conference really brought back some memories. If Oxford needs to know where to get airplanes or banners, they just need to let us know here at Arkansas. FYI, if you want to watch the full press conference, here’s a link…

Breaking News: We’re Having a Baby!!!

It’s no secret that my wife and I have wanted to have children for a long time now. Having tried on our own for the better part of our 6 year marriage and enduring months of expensive fertility treatments, out of pocket surgeries, and three painful miscarriages we had decided to pursue another route recently to build our family. After a lot of prayer we both decided to pursue adoption, and were getting started in the process with Abba Adoption Agency, an agency we finally felt comfortable with after visiting with several.

We were both pretty content in our decision to pursue adoption and were both on our merry way providing all of the information the agency was going to need to process our paperwork until one day, totally out of the blue, my wife walks in and throws a pregnancy test on my desk marked “Positive”… Yeah, I didn’t have a clue what to say. My first emotion of course was excitement, but that was quickly followed by concern given the fact that this is typically how this emotional roller coaster starts out. Well, long story short, we told each other that we were just going to trust God that this pregnancy was going to be perfect and that it was totally out of our hands. We also agreed that we weren’t going public with the news until we knew for sure the pregnancy was going to be viable, meaning the 10-12 week mark. Well, guess what…

Yesterday we went in for an ultrasound and not only was our baby doing fine, it had developed some little arms since the last time we had seen him and he/she was doing one of two things. Praising God or calling the Hogs because those tiny arms were moving around in there and we got to see it. The other day we were able to pick up the heartbeat on Doppler and that literally brought tears to my eyes, I didn’t even see that coming either.

A couple of things are different about this pregnancy that I think are worth noting. Donna is doing great, she’s as cool as a cucumber, not stressed about the least thing. I, on the other hand, am not sleeping at night and am constantly having to seek God in prayer to help stabilize my nervousness. The other day we walked out of the OBGYN office and I glanced down to realize that my shirt was soaked through and through from sweat. Another thing that I should also note, our OBGYN is an incredible guy, he and his team have been with us through the lowest points of our marriage during the past miscarriages and always in the past he let us know that he was cautiously optimistic about our chances. This pregnancy he feels totally different, he has never expressed any concern this time around and has even told me that he feels really good about everything.

Needless to say, we are extremely happy right now, and thankful that God has decided to bless us with this child. We know it is all ultimately in his hands and we ask that each of you keep us, and baby, in your prayers! Our expected due date is in May…

My Ongoing Battle w/ ADHD

In honor of ADHD awareness week (more)I thought I would do this post for those that may know very little about Attention Deficit Disorder. Over the years I have been very public about the fact that I have ADHD. This is something we didn’t discover until I was in my late 20′s / early thirties after I decided to be tested because I knew my reading comprehension was sub-par at best. Come to find out, most of what I read my entire life in school was never retained. While getting this diagnosis may have been a disappointment for some people, it was actually a relief to me in a lot of ways. It helped explain a lot that I had struggled with internally for a number of years.

Most people think of children when they hear the term ADHD or attention deficit hyperactivity disorder. But 30%-70% of kids with ADHD continue having symptoms when they grow up. People with ADHD have an imbalance of neurotransmitter activity in areas of the brain that control attention. In adults, the inability to stay focused can derail careers, ambitions, and relationships. Many adults don’t realize they have the disorder, leaving them mystified about why their goals always seem to slip out of reach.

ADHD in adults follows a slightly different pattern than in children. Adults may be chronically late to work or important events. They may be disorganized, restless, and have difficulty relaxing. Some people with ADHD have trouble concentrating while reading. Mood swings, low self-esteem, and poor anger management are also common problems.

Coping with the symptoms of adult ADHD can be frustrating in itself. Additionally, many adults with ADHD have coexisting conditions such as depression, anxiety, or obsessive compulsive disorder. People with ADHD can limit these problems by seeking proper treatment. Personally, I happen to have a touch of OCD as well, not to the point of weirdness or anything but I can tell immediately if someone has been sitting at my desk and moving things around.

Once I was diagnosed w/ ADHD my doctor at the time prescribed a couple of different medications until we arrived upon one that actually worked for me, Adderall. Over time I have been able to have a productive life and accomplish a lot of things both on a personal and professional level so I consider myself extremely fortunate and blessed in that regard. In addition to medication, which has been updated and tweaked over time, I have also picked up some things that help me stay focused when it comes to projects that I might be working on. I am a freaking computer programmer / designer for crying out loud, the least little distraction for me at the most inopportune moment could cost me an entire day.  In addition to medication there are a couple of other things that I have implemented recently that I can already tell are going make a difference in my everyday life.  Here’s what I am implementing…

  1. Controlled Exposure to Social Media
    By controlled exposure, I am only going to check my Facebook & Twitter 3 times a day, and those will fall at times allocated in my daily calendar.  (Excerpt from WebMD: Whether you’re living with ADHD or just have trouble focusing from time to time, today’s world is full of concentration killers. Psychologist Lucy Jo Palladino, PhD offers a few tips to manage distractions, starting with social media. It’s easy to connect with friends — and disconnect from work — many times an hour. Every status update zaps your train of thought, forcing you to backtrack when you resume your work.)
  2. Allocated Times for Email Correspondence:
    I have always tried to respond to every email that hit my inbox as quickly as possible. This is really bad for a couple of reasons for me. In the future I plan on responding to emails 3 times daily, once in the morning, once at lunchtime, and once in the evening as I am shutting down for the day. (Excerpt from WebMD: There’s something about an email — it shoots into your inbox and itches to be answered immediately. Although many emails are work-related, they still count as distractions from your current project. You won’t make much progress if you constantly stop what you’re doing to reply to every message.)
  3. Organizational Tools / Calendars / Tasks / Notes / Reminders / etc.
    This is something I am currently struggling with since moving to the Mac from a Windows environment where every detail of my entire life was recorded in Microsoft Outlook. I am still fighting this battle but I think a solution might be in the near future regarding this area. As soon as I can get this streamlined, I can have a better idea as to where I stand on projects, etc.

For some more tips on staying focused, I highly recommend this article on battling distractions for people w/ ADHD…

Also, if you think that you might have ADHD, ask your family doctor to send you somewhere to be tested. Just finding out about ADHD made a huge difference in my life and it can yours too! If you have any questions about my ongoing battle, please feel free to drop me a note privately, or leave me a comment…

New Caricature! What do you think?

My friend, Tim Langley at YouBlether.com, floored me this morning when he sent this caricature of me over Skype this morning! What an awesome job! The inside joke on this is that I rarely ever wear a tie, it takes someone usually either dying or getting married for me to put on a tie. My business partners are the exact same way, I’ve only seen them wear a tie one time, and that was at my wedding 6 years ago!!!  This is going to be a lot of fun to play with! Thanks Tim!!

Thoughts on Dan Wheldon

As far as motorsports go I’ve never been as big of an Indy Car fan as I am a NASCAR fan for obvious reasons, but I do have a few drivers in the Indy league that I have always liked and admired, Dan Wheldon was one. I wasn’t home watching the race today like I had originally planned and it hit me like a brick that Dan Wheldon had been killed in Vegas. I pulled up YouTube as quick as I could get to my iPad today and watched the footage of the wreck (see below), and couldn’t believe my eyes.

I always thought Wheldon had a cool accent, that’s certainly going to be missed. Just like the NASCAR family, I know the IndyCar family is pretty close knit and I can’t imagine what they are going through right now. I can remember a point years ago after Dan had accomplished pretty much there was to accomplish in the Indy series he approached Ray Evernham about pursuing NASCAR, and I had really hoped to see that deal get worked out but it never did. The guy was 33 years old.

In case you missed the wreck footage, you can see that below:

 

Thoughts on “Operation Delta Blues”

Click here to visit the King Cotton Thread Company to purchase your very own Operation Delta Blues commemorative merchandise.
I have had a few people ask me recently what happened in my hometown of Helena-West Helena that brought national news attention, especially since my interview this week on Fox16 News. Operation Delta Blues, as it was titled by the United States Attorney Generals Office, consisted of simultaneous raids on 70+ individuals that were carried out by 800 federal and state law enforcement officers. The agencies involved included the FBI, IRS, DEA, ATF, and the Arkansas State Police. Among those arrested, 5 were active law enforcement officers. And to answer the question everyone has asked, yes I did know a lot of these people.

The first reports I got about what was going on came from Facebook, where a lot of my friends who remain in Helena-West Helena were posting reports of helicopters and swat teams all over town w/ loudspeakers, machine guns, and total chaos. I was traveling out of town to a meeting but called a relative who’s office is located at the airport and he said that when he arrived at work that morning he was greeted at the front entrance by a host of federal agents armed to the hilt that informed him he had the rest of the day off work because they had taken over the airport and the National Guard Armory to use as their staging ground. It was later learned that the Armory was where all of those arrested were being held and processed. Below is a video featuring a news report and the press conference that was held immediately following all of the arrests:

As for me personally, my thoughts on what all went down are mixed, I hated to see my hometown look like Gotham City minus Batman on the news again, but knowing that a lot of planning and intel went into this investigation helped me to realize that maybe, just maybe, my hometown can start the process of getting back on it’s feet again after decades of decline partly due to an amazing crime rate.

Those of you that follow my blog may already be aware, I launched a line of products online shortly after the event went down not only to commemorate the event but also to hopefully raise some money for 2 charities, The Humane Society of the Delta and The One, Inc. Anyone that has ever visited Helena-West Helena is probably already aware that there is a serious stray dog problem in the area.

Here’s an article that was posted by The Associated Press detailing the entire event, one of my old roommates, Vance Kalb, was even interviewed. Hey, it’s a small town, everybody knows everybody!

LITTLE ROCK, Ark. (AP) — As rampant drug dealing and violent crimes crept into the isolated Mississippi River city of Helena-West Helena, people in town knew something was up. But few bothered calling for help as gunfire rang out near the historic streets lined with boutique shops and boarded-up buildings.

“What are the police going to do? Nine times out of 10, they’re just going to look the other way,” Bubba Sullivan said, echoing distrust voiced throughout town.

Officials say a four-year federal investigation, dubbed “Operation Delta Blues,” revealed that mistrust may not have been entirely misplaced. Hundreds of law enforcement officers swarmed Helena-West Helena in the middle of the night last week and arrested dozens of people — five of them law enforcement officers accused of taking bribes to ignore and sometimes assist drug traffickers who shipped marijuana, cocaine and other illegal drugs throughout Arkansas, Mississippi and Tennessee.

The FBI said the probe focused on corrupt officers dealing with criminals who, in some cases, were convicted murderers.

“For far too long, a small minority of individuals has taken over this community,” Mayor Arnell Willis said.

Parts of Willis’ city of 12,000 remain undeniably inviting. Past a valley bathed in green vines, people have converted Victorian-style mansions into bed and breakfasts. Advertisements on more than one building boast the best Coca-Cola in town. Banners promote the historic downtown drag that drew tens of thousands of tourists just this month for the famous King Biscuit Blues Festival.

But a few blocks away, broken panes of glass and crumbling buildings hint at the crime that’s haunted this city in the Mississippi River Delta, where jobs are scarce and the poverty rate has climbed to 30 percent. Financial troubles have led the state to take over the local schools, twice. Eight killings have been reported this year.

Bill Brothers, 60, remembers wandering the neighborhood as a child, without making his parents fret. But Brothers, who buys and sells airplanes, said he has been far more cautious raising his three sons.

“It’s gotten where it’s not uncommon” to hear gunshots, he said. “It’s not something you’d be startled about anymore.”

Willis, who took over the mayor’s office in January, said he couldn’t go to church on Sundays without hearing from people worried about killings and corruption. So just months into the job, he headed to Little Rock to beg U.S. Attorney Christopher Thyer for help. “To be honest, I got tired of hearing the question,” Willis said. “Locally, we were doing all we could do.”

Thyer didn’t tell Willis during their three-hour meeting that his office already had been investigating for years. He also didn’t tell the mayor that at least four area police officers and a sheriff’s deputy allegedly had been taking $500 bribes to escort drug shipments through the city and use their authority to prevent arrests or prosecutions. Prosecutors say the deputy was caught on a wiretap referring to it all as “the good old boy system.”

The officers, who have all pleaded not guilty, were among defendants listed in seven federal indictments unsealed last week that brought 184 charges against some 70 people. The main indictment alleges a drug trafficking operation directed out of Helena-West Helena “was responsible for the distribution of large quantities of cocaine, crack cocaine, marijuana” and other drugs in east Arkansas, Memphis, Tenn., and Clarksdale, Miss., along with other areas.

Local pawn shop owner Vance Kalb III said he often would see and hear flashes of gunfire on the overnight security camera videos he watches every morning. “We all feel like it can’t get any worse, but it always does,” Kalb said. “There’s a lot of things that don’t even show up in the newspaper.” When he came into work the morning after last week’s busts, Kalb saw on the video flashes of emergency lights and heard arrests being made. The tapes were much quieter the rest of the week. Kalb has tried to stay positive after bust, even designing several T-shirts celebrating the operation. One shirt pokes fun at defendants’ nicknames listed in the indictments — “Ray Ray,” ”Cheeseburger,” ”The Mechanic” and “Pee Wee.” “You can’t do nothing but laugh,” Kalb said. “It’s sad, but at the same time, I’m happy it happened.”

Those arrested are being held in Little Rock, more than 100 miles away. People in Helena-West Helena say they’re grateful for outside agencies’ help, but can’t help but wonder if they’re only seeing a brief respite from the noise and violence.

“When they get out, what’s going to happen?” asked Linda Walters, who drives a school bus. “Is the killing going to start all over again?” Thyer and other law enforcement officials have said their investigation will continue, though they won’t comment on their next steps.

Residents, meanwhile, are coming out on their porches and yards again. For the first time many can remember, people say they have hope. Some are enjoying the silence. Walters had grown accustomed to dropping from her bed and hiding on the floor when she heard gunfire in the middle of the night. “Ever since they shot at my house, I hadn’t really gotten no rest,” Walters said. “I didn’t think anybody was going to do anything.” After last week’s arrests, she said she got a good night’s sleep.

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Hopefully, this information will help get everyone up to speed as to what all went down in my hometown and why I have been superglued to the news reports about the event. Please keep in mind that this was just phase one of the investigation, everyone that I have spoken to expects there to be many more arrests in the following weeks and months.

A couple of things that are of interest concerning Operation Delta Blues that I wanted to point out that might be worth watching…

  • It has been reported by several outlets that a local defense attorney was named as the source for payments to the officers who provided protection to the people named in these indictments. That attorney hasn’t been named as far as I know, but you know good and well that deals are probably already being made on that front. Either the attorney is striking a deal or someone named in the earlier indictment is singing like a bird right now, possibly even both if that’s possible.
  • The Washington Post mentioned that during the arraignment process one of the defendants named, Demetrius Colbert, said in court Thursday that he couldn’t afford to hire his own attorney. It was then that prosecutor Julie Peters told Judge Volpe that authorities had found $423,000 in cash inside an Oldsmobile Cutlass belonging to Colbert. Peters said Colbert also had a Cadillac and other luxury cars.  That’s a lot of cash to be taken out of a drug operation, I don’t care if it’s Pablo Escobar, that much cash missing is going to raise some eyebrows and possibly lead to a lot of time. If this Colbert guy, who is obviously connected pretty well to a syndicate, is moving that much in drugs, it’s likely the Feds will offer him a serious break in order to take down bigger players on down the line, possibly moving into an international phase of this case.
  • Most of the people involved in this case are mid-level dealers, and honestly don’t have two nickels to rub together, obviously some have more than others, but for the most part being broke is just part of that lifestyle. I look for a lot of these guys, especially the smarter ones w/ families and weren’t involved on a daily basis w/ the organized crime side of this case, to cut some serious deals by cooperating. That’s how the federal system works. Everyone I have spoken w/ in Phillips County that is familiar w/ the case is waiting on the hat to drop and the next roundup net just as many, if not more offenders.

One other thing I wanted to make clear, I’m a pretty busy guy and will not be updating my blog very consistently with updates regarding this case because frankly I have too much going on, but I will be keeping up as closely as I can. Just don’t rely on me for fact, or late breaking news because I am pretty detached from the entire area, as I have been gone for over a decade now. There are however tons of news stories on Operation Delta Blues available online from news and media outlets across the United States, here’s a listing compliments of Google News if you are interested…

This is a follow-up to a recent post where I opened an online store selling Operation Delta Blues Merchandise. The proceeds from this store will go to support The Humane Society of the Delta, and The One, Inc. You can purchase merchandise here…

Fox16 – Operation Delta Blues (Updated)

The other night I couldn’t sleep because of a neck injury so I wandered into my office in the middle of the night and started reading some of the news stories from earlier in the day where Operation Delta Blues went down in my hometown was one of the largest drug and racketeering cases ever pursued by the US Attorney General. If you are unfamiliar w/ what all went down, there are several news stories available from media outlets across the region. Click here for a running list courtesy of Google News.

Once I had gotten caught up on the story and was able to digest the magnitude of what all had gone on I got to thinking and decided to create a t-shirt that could be sold online to help raise money for some non-profits that I wanted to support. The next thing I did was to design a quick graphic that could go onto the t-shirts, that didn’t take me too long to do since I already had an idea in my head based on the events that had taken place w/ all of the helicopters and federal law enforcement agents that were involved. You can see my design by clicking on the links below to place your orders.

Fox16 News Story: Click here for entire post…

Updated: 10/13 11:25 pm  Published: 10/13 5:57 pm

The historic drug and public corruption round-up in Helena / West Helena is already taking on a marketing life of its own with “Operation Delta Blues” merchandise. What better way to commemorate a massive federal raid on your hometown than with a teddy bear or what about an “Operation Delta Blues” tank-top.

Cotton Rohrscheib sees the federal raid on his childhood hometown of Helena-West Helena as an end to corruption in the Arkansas delta. “Everyone you talk to down there, yes they are upset that they are in the news again because of something bad,” Rohrscheib says. “But I’m looking at this like the mayor (Arnell Willis) and other people have said, this is going to be a turning point, things are finally going to get turned around down there.”

So the Conway based software developer says he came up with the idea for the “King Cotton Thread Company” on-line store at 2am earlier this week. “The thing everyone was talking about was the helicopters that they saw so I was originally envisioning the state of Arkansas, the Delta with helicopters, so that’s where the idea came from,” Rohrscheib says.

The t-shirts, mugs, and teddy bears are already on sale and he hopes “Operation Delta Blues” is remembered as a positive moment. “The town has some of the best people you will ever meet in your life, some of the hardest working people, but over the last few years that area has been taking a hit every time you turn around,” Rohrscheib says.

Rohrscheib says the proceeds from his on-line store will go to help building an animal shelter in Phillips County and for caring for the homeless population in central Arkansas through the non-profit “The Van”, as long as the FBI or DEA don’t come calling for using their likeness on the website.

“I think I’m ok, I hope I’m ok, if not we’ll take it down,” Rohrscheib says. FOX16 News placed calls to both the Little Rock office of the DEA and FBI about the “Operation Delta Blues” themed store.

FBI spokesman Steve Frazier says the public is not free to use FBI seals or lettering without FBI permission. The DEA did not return our call. In response, artwork on the website was modified Thursday evening to eliminate direct references to either agency.

Rant: Innovation -vs- What Works

I tweeted something today that had been on my mind for a few weeks:

The reasoning behind the tweet was a culmination of things lately that have really had me scratching my head. The first being Facebook’s latest upgrade. If you haven’t noticed the level of interaction on Facebook drop since this upgrade you should probably get your eyes checked. Honestly, no one knows what to do, where to go, etc., it’s even confusing to me at times and this is what I do for a living.  Granted, there probably hasn’t ever been a Facebook upgrade that was ever accepted with open arms by the community, people will complain about anything, especially Facebook users (who pay nothing by the way). In the past the tweaks and improvements put in place have always been intuitive enough for people to catch onto what’s going on after they get their bearings and in a week or two it’s a mute issue (until the next update of course). Not this last revision

I can’t single out Facebook, one of my favorite apps of all-time, Gowalla, recently launched the biggest new release yet, and get this, it’s a complete departure from where they started. For myself, and about 2 dozen people I have spoken with lately, all of the reasons we fell in love w/ Gowalla are now gone. It’s sort of like dating a really pretty girl in high school and all of a sudden she shaves her head and grows a beard. One of the things I really liked about Gowalla was the custom location stamps, for instance, when I checked in at Wimpy’s Burgers and Fries on Gowalla, I could post to Facebook where I was at and let all of my friends know in a bold way by displaying Wimpy’s custom icon on my Facebook wall. That is now gone, in fact, the entire simple check-in process appears to have been replaced by “stories”, something that I discussed among friends this past weekend (see tweets).

I’m not saying that Gowalla shouldn’t ever change, that’s crazy! My problem is that they changed too much, all at once. When I first heard about the exciting changes coming at Gowalla I was pretty excited about the idea of stories, that was of course before I figured out that the simple check-in was gone!!  Here’s a post I did on the announcement of the new version…

I think sometimes we get way too anxious in this day and age to be the first to deliver some new innovation or improvement that no one else has ever seen before that we lose sight in our purpose. Let’s take for instance what we saw today w/ Netflix. They had this idea for something new, Qwikster, but announced today that they were just going to leave things alone for the time being…

  • What kind of cojones did it take for Netflix to recall something they had invested hundreds, if not thousands, of hours into because it wasn’t a good fit for their consumers?
  • Remember “New Coke”? Remember when they brought back “Coca-Cola Classic” because “New Coke” sucked?

I applaud Netflix for their maturity, and wish nothing but the best to Facebook and Gowalla, just wanted to share my two cents. What are your thoughts?

 

 

RIP Steve Jobs

The people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world are usually the ones that do…

Steve Jobs, died on October 5 aged 56, was the visionary co-founder, and later chief executive, of Apple, makers of the Macintosh computer, the iMac, the iPod, iPad, and iPhone, and the man behind the astonishing success of the computer animation firm Pixar, makers of Toy Story and Finding Nemo; in consequence he did more to determine what films we watch, how we listen to music, and how we work and play than any other person on the planet.